you can't fake genuine... or can you?

Okay because I am in a bittersweet kind of mood I just want to kind of ramble on about this for a minute. Maybe it will lesson the weight of it on my mind...

I sort of, kind of mentioned I'm single. It was more like bluntly talking about how my ex and I were over and done with for good and it was just ultimately best for the long run. Um yeah Well that lasted a good 6 months. The longest we ever went. But, come to find out he loves me just as much as he did way back when. sounds sweet, but no it is probably the worse news for me to hear, geez when will it end...

We ran into each other at the park (he knew I walked there on Mondays). Okay so he came to see me I guess. Let me back up a minute, I already sound confusing and this situation is just confusing in itself. Prior to running into each other... we had to go as far as blocking our numbers because we just couldn't or wouldn't stop talking a good year after we broke up. I just needed some closure and I thought it would help. It did for me, a lot, I thought I would be content and I thought I had enough courage to move on and wish him well. Well the first time we saw each other after 6 months was at the softball field and it was very brief, but it led to us unblocking our numbers. I had already done it about a month before because I was tired of paying on it and I figured he wouldn't even realize it was unblocked, but then that night he unblocked mine and texted me and we havent stopped texting since. Then he caught on to my schedule. The walk in the park mondays schedule. He came there and walked with me about 4 weeks ago and its been a weekly thing. WTH good thing I could care less. Oh well, will finish venting later...